Maybe it's time to actually
Maybe it's time to actually go walkabout?
Just leave this all behind for as long as it takes?
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Maybe it's time to actually go walkabout?
Just leave this all behind for as long as it takes?
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When I met with the Jaguar to apologize for my behavior, I also confronted her about her threatening me with all manner of nastiness. And sending shit to me at work in order to embarrass me.
But I tried to remain friendly, I hate burning bridges.
This morning, she texted me asking if she could come over to snuggle.
I told her no.
She called me an asshole.
I ripped her a new one in a follow-up email, explaining that I can't have people in my life who are toxic and who are going to threaten me.
She sent me an email back saying that she loved me.
Trip trip trip trip trip trippin away.
Now if only the Liberal loved the Jaguar, it'd be a love triangle.
But then, I don't think they know each other, and the Liberal is straight, from everything I can gather.
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A clarification.
Since the Liberal and I last spoke, I've seen the Jaguar twice (socially, in public, did not do anything with her do not WANT to) and I didn't see the Cuban.
When I said that I was not over her, what I meant by that is that hearing her voice stirred memories in me.
Leaving voicemail for the Liberal on XMas, hearing her voice on her voicemailbox, gave me the same feeling, only stronger.
I've been on several dates, and I'm not interested in any of the other women. The SchoolTeacher was not attractive to me, and while HipHop was beautiful, really, truly gorgeous, I'm just not interested.
I'm cleaning out my apartment. Hopefully, this process will dredge up a lot of past shit and then I can walk away from it.
Hoping the Liberal is ok, since I haven't heard from her in over a week. I'm sure she's great, but she was sick when last we spoke. Whatever, not my problem, as I have to keep reminding myself.
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Sir Italian - A PUA from ASF... I'm a regular lurker on the FS website.
Before I met the Liberal, I was doing very well with that. For reasons that mark me out as an RAFC, things with her went incredibly quickly. And then she moved to another country, and i'm recovering.
I called her to wish her a Merry Christmas. Not only did she not answer, but she never called back. Nor has she returned my emails.
Sid - just for my peace of mind, don't bad mouth her please. Or women in general. Because in this instance, I know where things went wrong, and which things were my clinginess and which things were her.
I'll be back on my PUA game soon, I think.
There's only one thing I'm working on now, and that's random approaches. That's my big psychological sticking point, before thinking that I'm good to go and be whatever whenever. I get picked up regularly, still, and I get picked up online. But what we have unearned has no value.
What we earn is everything.
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Three girls, two weeks, three hookups. Things with the Liberal are quite over, quite against my will. A friend told me that to get over someone you have to get on top of other people. It's not working at all.
The Cuban stood me up.
I need to walk.
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I emailed the Liberal. Stupid, I know.
I asked if she was ok.
She said she's been very sick and can't talk. Again. This is the second time this month she's had this virus that's apparently caused her to literally lose her voice.
Explains why she never called me back.
We'll see what develops.
I went on a date with a new girl last night, nickname forthcoming, who I actually liked and didn't have sex with.
We'll see what develops.
The Cuban sent me a long email. So much of the last two years of my life has tied itself up nicely in the last few days it's almost scary. And the Cuban's email? Topped it all off. What she said made me realize that I'd been stupid about a lot of things, but have learned from my mistakes. Pleased.
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I'm looking forward to seeing the Cuban more than I look forward to hearing from the Liberal.
These days, thinking about the Liberal just makes me sad.
And the Jaguar is still nuts.
I am walking away from women, not towards them.
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Remember how I said I was over the Cuban?
Yeah. I just spoke to her. How wrong I was.
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Well, the dumping is official. She's updated her friendster profile to seeking men for dating. Although it still says in a relationship, i'm sure that's a mistake.
And it also says she's in brooklyn, which is odd, since she's in the DR. At least, I think she is.
I am sad as heck over this.
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